LONELY IN LOVE

I’ll worship the sand beneath your feet
And put you before my needs.
I won’t die for you! No!
My love is no fairy tale love.
I choose to maintain my sanity
whilst I dust the sinews of your heart with gold.
I want to be able to tell them when they ask
Why I loved you so
That I loved you with every active part of my mind,
And that you were my all.
My best friend, my mother and my sister.
They saw me smile from canine to canine
Whenever you were close to me.
What they didn’t know was that I was dying inside
And that I was alone when I was with you.
You seemed so distant
So I decided to build a bridge to get to you
But before I could set up the pillars of the bridge
The avalanche of your anger tore  them down’
You didn’t want me to be your hero…
And all I wanted was to be your god.

And now you tell me you’re leaving
Leaving?
But you were never here?
Here with me
For us to feel the love I had for both of us 
I’ll survive without you
But you’ve left a deep scar in my being.
Every other girl I meet will be doused in your
raucous laughter, your care free spirit, your humour, and your smell.
There are a million ways to die
I live in the slow death of unrequited love
And that’s the most lethal way to die,
Murderer! Thief!
Why do I love you so?




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