You used to say I was beautiful... That I was strong and exuded incontestable grace You used to love all the scars of my heart And all the other things that made me ugly Yet, You whispered incessantly "You're all the woman I'll ever NEED" You filled my days with renewed hope and gave me the strength to pick up my dusty jewels. Your love enveloped my cold and darkened soul Your encouragement was healing to my broken wings. You cheered me on You nursed my wounds... and uplifted my dampened spirit. As time went by, I grew feathers on my wings And with a flicker and a flick, my spirit was re-ignited. And when my wings grew all the feathers it had lost, I began to soar so high up in the sky. Like an eagle I became strong Tenacious Fearless ...
I cannot recollect the number of times I have found warmth in you… You understand my battles and you hear the echoes too The echoes in these walls where nothing ever happens Where hopes evaporate and happiness has fled And every day is a nasty war, bloodier than before. You have heard my chanting through the night Praying and crying for redemption from life’s sinking sands I find no peace here, I find myself in pieces here. So I run to you for comfort Alas I am weary and the tissues of my heart are worn out Worn out from the journeys they wished I had traveled in pursuit of love and the luxuries of life. Reignite my passion to live on without fainting Maybe I aimed too high. Maybe I deserve the low I like how your waters burn my skin My skin reddens as I groan in pain But I crave your touch…It is the only reality I understand. Maybe happiness is not for everyone…. I learn this every day.
What do you do with this cruel loneliness? When there's a vacuum in your soul and your alone is a mess? What do you do on cold harmattan nights, When self loathing and your facial muscles are engaged in a brutal fight? How do you break out of those towering walls Where you built your home and buried in it your heart's pulse? You're now dead to the world Can anyone, the clanking metals of your heart weld? Poor Soul! "'Maybe I'll go for a walk and clear my head you say" But deep within your darkest thoughts you silently pray That you never meet happy lovers or hear your heart resonate the truth Or else,you start a candid analysis of your life and your wasted youth. "Maybe I'll eat well and workout more So I gain the voluptuous body all the men adore" I hope you find hope in yourself when your body is sore Oh how you forget so quickly that self-acceptance is bae. And that Baby, you're perfect in every effing way...
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