The news of my father’s death hang heavy on our necks like the chains and shackles of a thousand Salaga prisoners. The cries of twenty five newly widowed women pierced the thick darkness the moonless night brought, leaving it empty and completely dead. The only light that shone through the night was the happy flickering fire in Pokuya’s eyes. She was Papa’s youngest wife, and still in her prime. Perhaps, the sad news in itself was liberation to her forcefully captured heart, and as much as she wanted to hide how she felt, she couldn’t shed a single tear. She went unnoticed by the other wives who were stuck fast in a herbal bath of nauseating melancholy. Any woman who did not cry when her husband died was branded a witch per the custom of Nsuma. I am an outcast. I am a griot. I am a loner who often sits under this Iroko tree with a chewing stick in one hand and my chin resting in the other. My bulgy eyes are pregnant with unseen and untold secrets of passers-by. No one...
When you walked into my life, I was black And then you filled it with color and glitter… And everything nice. You span me on your love’s carousel And I reeled with pleasure! I twirled round and round UP AND DOWN till I was hit by a frightful dizziness, I drowned myself in the murky waters of your love. My conscience gasped for air And I lost my direction... And when you saw that I couldn’t find my feet anymore... You left me in a convulsive fit of needing you I wanted to be so close to you. You became too used to me And as you left you gave me a cold sneer, and walked away with ten thousand pieces of what was left of me hanging on your breath... But I knew on the day you walked aw...
I cannot recollect the number of times I have found warmth in you… You understand my battles and you hear the echoes too The echoes in these walls where nothing ever happens Where hopes evaporate and happiness has fled And every day is a nasty war, bloodier than before. You have heard my chanting through the night Praying and crying for redemption from life’s sinking sands I find no peace here, I find myself in pieces here. So I run to you for comfort Alas I am weary and the tissues of my heart are worn out Worn out from the journeys they wished I had traveled in pursuit of love and the luxuries of life. Reignite my passion to live on without fainting Maybe I aimed too high. Maybe I deserve the low I like how your waters burn my skin My skin reddens as I groan in pain But I crave your touch…It is the only reality I understand. Maybe happiness is not for everyone…. I learn this every day.
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